Adulthood = Dying

•May 19, 2011 • 1 Comment

This week I started reading Quitter¬†by Jon Acuff. The tagline for it is, “Closing the gap between your day job and your dream job.” I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what steps I need to take next to get to my dream job and I thought this book might have some insight. From time to time I read Jon’s blog Stuff Christians Like, which makes fun of all the stupid things in the Christian culture, and always found it entertaining. When I saw that he had just come out with a book about how to get to your dream job, I figured I would give it a read. At the very least I would hopefully get a couple laughs out of it.

In the first chapter he tells you first of all that you shouldn’t just up and quit your day job in hopes of pursuing your dreams. His argument is that even though you might escape the boss you don’t like at your current job, after you quit your new boss becomes your bills and other financial responsibilities that will begin to loom over you when you don’t have any income. He also says that when money starts to get tight you begin to compromise whatever your dream is so that you can make some cash by any means possible. I’m not sure how much I could really take away from this first part because, well, first of all I don’t have a job right now. It’s not that I blindly quit my day job, it’s that all of my jobs in the last two years have been seasonal jobs that end after six months tops which leaves me to hunt for another.

The seasonal thing is fun for sure, but sometimes I do miss the security that I had when I did have a full time job. The health insurance was also pretty nice. The problem for me with “real” jobs is that as soon as I start, I feel like I’m trapped in a prison where there is no escape. Maybe that’s because I’ve never really liked any of my real jobs. Perhaps if I started a new job that was amazing the cabin fever wouldn’t set in before I even saw my first paycheck. Seasonal jobs are great in the fact that you already know it’s going to be over before you start. I can suffer through almost anything as long as I know it’s going to end after a couple months.

Ever since I finished this last job in February though, I’ve been having a lot of “what the hell am I doing with my life” moments. No, I’m not miserable. I’m actually pretty happy most days. But the thought of being 28, single, and unemployed makes me start to wonder if I missed some type of big opportunity in my early 20’s. Did I go to the wrong college? ¬†Should I have gone to film school right after college? Why didn’t I tell that girl I liked her? Why did I take that job? Why did I move there? Why didn’t I move to this other place? etc. I suppose you can second guess everything in life, because things never turn out the way we hope or expect. There was one line in the first chapter of Quitter that I liked though.

“People position adulthood like it’s the end of your life, not the beginning. You’ve had your fun. Now it’s time to grow up. You’ve lived it up. Now it’s time to start dying.”

I guess as much as I don’t like to admit it, I’ve bought into the lie that I should have everything figured out by this point in my life. It really is a lie though. Adulthood should really be where all the fun begins, not a prison sentence in a 30 year career that you don’t like until you retire. I like to think that the best years of my life are always ahead of me, no matter how old I am.

So we’ll see how this book turns out. Maybe it will give me the ideas or inspiration I need to figure out what my dream job is and, more importantly, how to get it.

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New Toys

•April 11, 2011 • Leave a Comment

I bought some fun new photo toys last week. I came across a deal in the local classifieds that was way too good to pass up. Someone was selling the Canon 10-22mm lens that I have been wanting for super cheap, but along with the lens for just a little more they were selling an old 20D that had been converted to infrared.

What does that mean? Well basically most digital cameras sensors can capture infrared, but to take proper pictures in light that our human eyes can see, manufacturers put an IR filter in front of the sensor that blocks out most of the IR light. When you have your camera modded, they take off that IR filter and replace it with a filter that only lets certains wavelengths of IR through while blocking out normal, visible light waves. I did a couple test shots yesterday as I was playing with my new camera and this is what I ended up with. Guinness was happy to model for a couple photos. First up is the new 20D.

11 things to do in 2011

•January 2, 2011 • Leave a Comment

Yes. I have a slight obsession with lists. Here is 11 things off the top of my head that I want to do in 2011.

1. Finish my feature screenplay.

2. Shoot my short movie.

3. Take pictures and lots of them. Maybe even try to get paid to take pictures.

4. Have an art show for my photography.

5. Leave the country. Hopefully this will mean crossing an ocean.

6. Hike the Grand Canyon.

7. Play and record some music.

8. Go on a date with a girl. Maybe even two.

9. Become proficient at Final Cut.

10. Brew my own beer.

11. Don’t take a job that I know I won’t like.

There it is. My list for 2011. I’ll let you know how it goes.

My top 10 of 2010

•December 31, 2010 • Leave a Comment

1. I got to experience my first Sundance Film Festival. Saw a ton of movies and was reminded of why I love film.

2. I lived in New York City for a while which was incredible. I loved living in big city, especially my neighborhood in Brooklyn. I also realized that I could probably never live there long term because I would miss the mountains too much. I also could not handle inhaling all the second hand smoke on the sidewalk every day.

3. I finally took the plunge and bought a Mac. I know, I’m one of those people now. Don’t worry, I don’t plan on buying a fixie any time soon.

4. I visited Arches National Park. It is one of the most beautiful places in the world. Just amazing.

5. I had dinner with Anthony Bourdain. Yes, he is really cool in person. We enjoyed a delicious roasted pig for dinner.

6. I found a new church in Salt Lake to call home.

7. I skied a ton, and it was on real mountains with real snow. Sorry Pennsylvania, your skiing just doesn’t compare.

8. I moved in to a new house with the two coolest roommates in the world and we even have a dog. I love coming home to a dog after work every day.

9. I got to scuba dive for the first time in years.

10. I drove a 3,000 mile solo road trip down the west coast. It was filled with national parks, big cities, old friends and new ones, and lots of peaceful nights camping in the wilderness. I could fill a whole top 10 list of things just from this trip.

This year has been amazing and looking back over it I feel really blessed for being able to do and see so much. Now I have to make 2011 even more amazing, but I’m up for the challenge.

28tolife

•December 31, 2010 • Leave a Comment

Yes another year of my life passed a week or so ago. Hard to believe it. It reminded me of how little I have been writing on here as of late. It’s not that I don’t want to, or even that I don’t have anything to write. It’s more that I don’t have time. Life is quite busy at the moment with work and play, and any time that I do have to sit quietly and write something down, it hasn’t been this blog. It is a new year and a new age for me though, so I suppose I’m going to work on fixing that.

I took this in Joshua Tree this summer.

 

Auditory flashbacks

•October 31, 2010 • 1 Comment

Isn’t it amazing how our memories are tied to music? Maybe it’s just me, but I can hear a song and picture clear as day where I was and how I was feeling when I listened to it. The things that were on my mind that day. What I was angry about or looking forward to. It’s weird how our minds associate things that way. Today I randomly started listening to some of the music I was listening to a lot last year

As soon as this one came across my headphones. I was instantly taken back to cold mornings driving through the snow on my way to the carpool lot for work. I remember trying to see clearly through my foggy, frosted windshield waiting for my car to get hot enough to turn on the heat. I was always too lazy (or running too late) to scrape my windshield, so I would just blast it with some de-icer washer fluid and go. Some mornings I wished that everyone would be running late so that I stay in my car long enough for the song to finish playing. There is nothing worse than having to get out of the car in the midst of the perfect song for that moment.

This one was a staple for weekends when me and Stephen were driving up the mountain to hit the slopes. It’s the perfect blend of poppy, catchy, and pretty. It makes we want to go skiing. I can’t wait until the snow gets here.

This one was for the late nights driving home by myself. Most people I know don’t appreciate music that has screaming in it so I have to take advantage of the times I am alone to crank the metal/hardcore stuff. I remember nights after poker games, or grabbing food with friends just cranking this album. Now that I’m listening to it again. I’m not really sure if I still like it musically, but it has sentimental value now so I’ll probably keep listening to it.

Yosemite

•October 3, 2010 • Leave a Comment

Finally getting back to going through my road trip pictures. They’ve been sitting on my camera for two month now. These are from Yosemite. When I first arrived in Yosemite, I was a little turned off. There were about a billion tourists there and it just seemed like more of the same mountains, rocks, and trees that I’ve seen a lot of as of late. I had left early that morning from San Francisco, and I was in a mad rush to get to the first come first served campground that I wanted to stay in.

There was road construction that slowed me down a bunch, but luckily I got one of the last spots that was left. I then rushed back down to the valley back through the road construction to start actually seeing things in the park. I explored and took in all the beauty of the amazing waterfalls, El Capitan, and near perfect sunset. I waited through the road construction for the third time (this time for almost an hour, ugh) and made it back to my campsite to enjoy a dinner of cold canned ravioli, mmmm. I woke up early the next morning since I was headed to LA that day and I wanted to get up to the glacier point, the big lookout over the valley. I could have sat at Glacier Point all day and just taken pictures. It was absolutely breathtaking. The last thing I did was hike around the giant sequoia grove which was not quite as cool as it would have been since I had just seen all the giant redwoods a few days before, but it was still pretty awesome.

I realized as I was leaving the park that this short 2 day visit was only long enough to see everything that I wanted to do in Yosemite. I need to go back and ride my bike around, climb half dome, raft down the river, and a lot more.

Here are a couple of the pictures I took in the short time I was there.